working the day away… or not

Since I was 16 years old I have worked a minimum of 20 hours a week on a normal week and in the summer it was much more than that and gaining a second job the summer before I went away to college only had me working harder and longer. But all these jobs, while leaving me tired, made me feel like there was some meaning to my life.

Now I am home the summer, after my sophomore year of college, used to working 20 hours a week, taking classes and being in a sorority I am doing less work than ever. I have two jobs and an internship but I still find myself bored. I have never wanted to work so bad. I never thought I would ever be begging to work but right now I am.

This has lead me to believe that I either hate being in my house or an a bit of a workaholic. So today when I spend the day not working like I have been spending my days I thought about it and I have come to no conclusion. I think that I am both. There is of course my very large need for money that doesn’t help me relax when I am not working.

This is what makes me sad about my internship and that is what makes it hard for me. I have to keep telling myself that it is good for the future and that it is all a learning experience. I just wish learning experiences came with more money.

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